I’ve got my lab schedule down to only two days a week now. But I’ve come to realize that even two days is two days too many. Dealing with a passive aggressive narcissistic major professor just plain sucks. Just when I think it’s okay, it’s not. So my song for this week isÂ OK Go – Here it Goes Again.
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I’ve always wanted to be a scientist. Â Science has always been my first love. Â Medicine was just an extension or application of science. Â At the root of it all was my love for science. Â Too bad that’s all over now thanks to my major professor. Â But that doesn’t stop me from declaring thatÂ I am a Scientist (by Guided by Voices).Â Don’t forget to send song suggestionsÂ here.
So part of my meager grad student salary is being paid for by a grant that belongs to someone else in the department.Â And they’re having these stupid way-too-long-and-way-too-boring meetings once a month and once every six months (overkill if you ask me).Â They talk about all this administrative stuff that doesn’t involve me at all, but I have to show up since I am being paid from it after all.Â And my major professor is still out of commission, so he obviously hasn’t been attending these meetings.Â Well, there’s one coming up next week and we all received an email reminding us of it.Â Â My ass of a major professor responds stating for the 1600th time the reasons why he can’t attend (he’s a bit of an attention whore) and twists the knife in my back by saying that Teacher’s Pet will attend because she’s his new right-hand man, er, woman.Â Um yeah, last time I checked, she isn’t even on this grant!Â And if she’s going to keep him updated on this whole grant business, then why the hell do I have to go to this marathon meeting?!Â It’s not so much that I want to be his bitch because that’s clearly what she’s become, but I’m angry that she has so blatantly replaced me as his favorite meaning he’s focusing all his attention on her, leaving me at the wayside to suffer in thesis purgatory forever.
So in honor of his asshole-ness and her kissing-ass-fake-niceness, my song for this week is: Get Set Go – You’re Gonna Die Alone.Â Ugh, people like them just make me sick.
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I’m so lazy, dammit.Â Less than 2 weeks until my talk and I still have yet to start analyzing my piles of data.Â I never used to be so lazy or unmotivated.Â Being stuck in my bastard major professor’s lab has done this to me.Â It’s turned me into an unmotivated blob who just sits around surfing the internet all day.Â I know I should get to work on my analysis, but I just can’t get myself to.Â I keep finding other things to do instead.Â And it’s all his damn fault.Â So my song for this week is Plain White T’s – Hey There Delilah.Â Let’s just ignore the whole long distance love song part of it and focus on the “Oh it’s what you do to me” part because my major professor did this to me…he turned me into a super slacker.
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My major professor has a new teacher’s pet and doesn’t pay any attention to me anymore.Â He even forgot Bastille Day, my favorite holiday of the year.Â I don’t really care except for the fact that it’s just plain messed up that he’s completely abandoned me so that he can teach someone else.Â And to make things even more messed up, he’s demanding my data so that he can use it to write a grant.Â Without telling me.Â Only problem is: I’m not dumb.Â I figured out his little scheme.Â It’s like I’m the little black sheep now.Â I get kicked around.Â And used.Â So I guess I’m better off without him.Â Except that I need him to finish my PhD.Â I’m so screwed.
Since I’m better off without him, my song for the week is: Unkle Bob – Better Off.
As always, feel free to send me song suggestions here.
As I mentioned in yesterday’s post, I find it really hard to actually get any work done in lab because I’m so used to doing nothing there and because it’s just such a negative environment. And it’s been hard to find music that can inspire me to get some work done. Nothing really works. Except for listening to my current obsessions over and over again. And right now, that obsession is Death Note, a highly intelligent and suspenseful anime that I highly recommend. I’ve found myself listening to the soundtrack for inspiration because it reminds me of the clash between two extremely intelligent people that happens in the anime, which motivates me to use some of my brains too. The songs are mostly instrumentals, so I don’t have any lyrics, but you’ll find a sample of a few of the more urgent-sounding songs in the YouTube clip below.
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By taking a whole extra year, I thought I was buying myself loads of time to finish up my PhD.Â I thought that I could just putt along on my experiments, take a few vacations, and generally kick back.Â But I just realized that I didn’t buy myself one whole year.Â In fact, I only have until next April-ish to finish.Â In reality, I need to finish a couple of months before then because there’s all this orientation and other hoops I have to jump through before I’m allowed to return to med school.
And yet, here I am, still fumbling at my experiments with no clear hypothesis in mind thanks to my ass of a major professor who thinks his half-assed non-sensical ideas will work out for me.Â Grad school has definitely been anything but smooth sailing.Â So in honor of my seasickness, this week’s song is Beck – Nausea.
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Ah, nothing like a little get-together of all of us MD/PhDers (they call it a colloquium) to remind me of how I’m not finishing my PhD this year as I had planned. And I really needed to finish this year. Because this whole PhD thing is driving me crazy. I don’t know if I can last another year. The longer it takes, the more bitter and jaded I become and the less likely I will go into academics once it’s all said and done (if ever). Argh, the frustration! And the song that’s running through my head as I fume against my predicament is the current opening theme for another anime that I watch called Death Note. It’s in Japanese and I haven’t found the translation, but it’s not what I would call a happy song. The seemingly incoherent rapidfire singing that this band does is so reminiscent of all of the non-help I’ve been getting to help me finish and get on with my life. It’s the perfect song for all of the frustration that I feel.
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