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inspirational music for life’s (annoying) little moments 1.15

I was so busy doing nothing this week that I completely forgot to celebrate my one-year blogiversary.  Yes, it’s true, it’s been over a year since I started my ranting and raving and it’s time to celebrate because I never thought I would have kept it up for so long.  Only problem is, I couldn’t think of an appropriate song because I don’t listen to happy, celebratory music at all.  So please forgive me if my song choice sucks.  I’m celebrating inside, I swear.  Anyway, my song for this occasion is from one of my favorite anime series, Bleach.  It’s called Tonight, Tonight, Tonight by Beat Crusaders.  Oh, and it’s in Japanese.  Thanks for reading and commenting.  Without you, I would have quit long ago.

And please, if you don’t want to see another pathetic attempt on my part to come up with happy songs, send me some suggestions here.

inspirational music for life’s (annoying) little moments 1.14

So the etiquette-less wedding of the year was this past weekend. Not only was I graced by the wonderful presence of my sister-in-law but I also got a healthy dose of my mother-in-law as well. I don’t like weddings. I don’t like weddings that involve my in-laws being anywhere near me. And I really don’t like receptions that last five hours! Yes, you read right. Five whole hours. I must have been delirious because after oh, the first three hours, I found myself being somewhat envious of my sister-in-law’s ability to be a social butterfly. I try. Really, I do. But people just don’t interest me. And I can’t pretend that I’m interested. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t sometimes lament my lack of people skills. Sometimes I wish it was easy for me. That I could fit in. So my song for the week is Unkle Bob - The Hit Parade. Because sometimes I want normal things too.

As always, feel free to send song suggestions to me here.

inspirational music for life’s (annoying) little moments 1.13

So after having to *shudders in disgust* call my crazy sister-in-law not once, but twice to try to figure out where the hell my second-or-third-I-don’t-know-and-don’t-care-cousin-in-law is registered for her wedding that’s happening in two weeks, I find out that they’re not registered at all! Bad enough their invitation left much to be desired, but now no registry?! What’s with these people thinking that they can just laugh in the face of etiquette? I’m tempted to buy them a wedding etiquette book for their wedding gift. A $200 wedding etiquette book. Or $200 worth of wedding etiquette books. Because that’s how much they gave us when we got married and we have to “repay” them now that it’s their turn (don’t you love Chinese culture?). But we can’t just give them cash because it’s disrespectful to give your elders money. And besides, then I would be giving in to their greedy, registry-eschewing-because-then-that’ll-force-guests-to-give-cash ways and I’m never one to do such a thing. So I’m going to buy them a $200 useless gift that they cannot return for store credit. Something personalized. Just to show them that they can’t get what they want out of me.

So, in honor of my not getting what I want (a wedding registry), they won’t be getting what they want (cash), and my song for this week is: The Rolling Stones - You Can’t Always Get What You Want. But I will be getting what I need: a little passive aggressive revenge. They definitely won’t be getting something they need. Nope. Not at all.

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inspirational music for life’s (annoying) little moments 1.12

You know what’s really annoying?  When I try my darndest and it still isn’t good enough.  It’s okay if it’s not good enough for me…if my standards for myself are too high.  But it’s not okay when it’s coming from someone who has absolutely no right to judge.  Yes, I’m talking about you, Mother-in-Law (actually, all of my in-laws, but Mother-in-Law is the one who started it all).  You, with no education free-loading off of the welfare and Medicaid systems and now your kids because free government money just isn’t enough.  Who gave you the right to judge me?  Ever think of taking a good hard look at yourself?  So evil woman that she is, she cannot admit that I’ve done good.  Ever.  I think she would spontaneously combust if she did.  We visited her this weekend (God knows why…I must have still been delirious from passing my quals) and my husband told her that I’d passed my quals and practically begged her to acknowledge it somehow.  But she didn’t.  I’ve had strangers congratulate me.  But not her.  How can you expect me to treat you with respect if you don’t afford the same towards me?  And to add insult to injury, she did not speak to me at all and repeatedly brought up not-so-dear brother-in-law as if to minimize my achievement (though how would I really know since she was speaking Chinese the whole time).

What happened this past weekend is but an example of her outrageous behavior towards me.  How do you expect me to treat you like a mother when you don’t treat me as well as you treat strangers?  Throughout this entire marriage, all I’ve done is bend over backwards and then some to do everything that she wanted of me.  And what did I get for my trouble?  A whole lot of drama.  And disrespect.  And more drama.  Now no one in his family talks to me even though I did my best for them too.  I’m a super-introvert and I’m super-selective about who I talk to, but I made the effort to try to befriend all of his siblings even though I would never give such people the time of day in real life.  And what did I get for making such efforts?  A whole lot of nothing.  Worse yet.  I got stabbed square in the back.  I can’t believe I felt bad about skipping Christmas with them.  I don’t anymore.  In fact, I’ll be sure to skip every Christmas from now on.

So, in honor of Mother-in-Law’s refusal to admit that I’m smarter than her entire family combined and to treat me with any respect despite my best efforts to treat her with respect when she doesn’t deserve it, my song for this week is: Joe Purdy - Can’t Get it Right Today.  Because I just can’t get it right with her.  Or the rest of my no-good in-laws.  But guess what.  I don’t care.  They just better know never to ask me for anything ever again.  You need a kidney?  Ha!  You can’t have mine!

As usual, feel free to send song suggestions to me here.

inspirational music for life’s (annoying) little moments 1.11

Yes, it's been awhile.  Sometimes I just forget what day of the week it is (uh, yeah, for the last 3 weeks) and neglect to post a new song of the week.  Well, I'm back and armed with a new favorite song to share with you.

I've been loving Damien Rice ever since I heard his song 9 Crimes.  Well, turns out there's an even better song on his 9 album: Rootless Tree.  It seems to be about a messed up relationship, but I find myself thinking about it in terms of my upcoming quals.  I just want to say, "screw you" to this whole quals business because it's eating me alive.  I just want to get it over with, even if I fail.  My life is on hold until then.  And the sad thing is that it'll stay on hold if I fail.  So here's hoping that I pass this thing in 13 days so I can get this rootless tree off of my back and reclaim my life.

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inspirational music for life’s (annoying) little moments 1.10

The holidays are coming up way too fast on me and I haven't finished up my Christmas shopping yet.  What I really need is a holiday from the holidays.  But as much as I want to avoid the impossible gift-hunt and awkward get-togethers with the in-laws, I can't.  There's no hiding from reality, right?  But there's always wishing I can.  So my song for this week is Jack's Mannequin - Holiday from Real.  Because that's what I need right about now.

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inspirational music for life’s (annoying) little moments 1.9

And this whole qualifying exam thing definitely qualifies as annoying. I have finally met with all of my committee (of doom) members and apparently I met with them in the wrong order. All the ones I met with before today’s final member were nice and made me feel like they weren’t going to eat me. But my last member, she tried to eat me today, damnit. She acted like my meeting with her was in fact my qualifying exam and picked apart the very basis of my thesis project, refusing to accept any of my explanations otherwise. I haven’t felt this close to having a nervous breakdown in front of my attacker since that time I got reamed by my warm-and-fuzzy doctoring class facilitators. Is this what it’s going to be like when I take my quals? I don’t remember signing up for this. If I had ever wanted to quit this whole PhD thing before, what transpired today just pushes me that much closer. Why bother torturing myself with this crazy studying when apparently no amount of studying can save me from out-to-get-me committee member? Maybe it’s just the study-overload and lack-of-life that’s talking, but I’m feeling pretty hopeless right now, which is not very conducive to my mastering of my leastest favorite topic in the whole world: Physiology and Electrophysiology of Membranes. Couple that topic with what happened today and you have the perfect recipe for grad student breakdown, which I’m trying very hard not to succumb to here. But enough whining and onto the music. The song that’s been running through my head ever since that meeting today is Jack’s Mannequin - Bruised. Because that’s definitely how I feel right now. And then some.

…Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes
That I am not there
I’ve wasted not studying, I swear I didn’t mean
For it to feel like this
Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised
Don’t fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me?
Can you make this last? This plane
time is all I got [to study]
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised, yeah…

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inspirational music for life’s (annoying) little moments 1.7

Failure. Again. I should be used to it by now. But it still sucks. Yep, I had another experiment today and it didn’t quite work out. I reduced the dose of the inciting agent for our model by half only to have the animal die within three minutes of receiving this agent. Which doesn’t make sense since the last animal was given twice as much and lived for over an hour. If this inconsistency is any indication of how reproducible this model is, then I’m in trouble.

As if that isn’t bad enough, I studied and studied since I said I was going to yesterday and only managed to get through two chapters of a 500 page textbook, so I’m finally beginning to really freak out about my quals.

So since I’m feeling like I’m chasing lost causes heremy experiments and my qualsI’ve chosen: Beck - Lost Cause for my song this week. I sure hope next week is better.

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