As I mentioned in yesterday’s post, I find it really hard to actually get any work done in lab because I’m so used to doing nothing there and because it’s just such a negative environment. And it’s been hard to find music that can inspire me to get some work done. Nothing really works. Except for listening to my current obsessions over and over again. And right now, that obsession is Death Note, a highly intelligent and suspenseful anime that I highly recommend. I’ve found myself listening to the soundtrack for inspiration because it reminds me of the clash between two extremely intelligent people that happens in the anime, which motivates me to use some of my brains too. The songs are mostly instrumentals, so I don’t have any lyrics, but you’ll find a sample of a few of the more urgent-sounding songs in the YouTube clip below.
As usual, please send song suggestions to me here.
This is unbelievable!Â I am actually doing data analysis right now, as I sit here at home and not at lab.Â I’ve always been one to never take my work home with me, but here I am, doing actual work at home instead of vegging out and watching anime or playing video games.Â Why the sudden change?Â Well, because my husband is still on his little premed adventure and is busy writing a paper.Â Bottom line is: he can’t distract me.Â He’s such a bad influence.Â I’ve never been lazier in my life than I am now that I’m with him.Â The sad thing is that I’m way more productive at home than at lab where I’ve been vegging out despite my best efforts.Â See, at home, I can get up and grab a snack and eat while I work whereas at lab, I inevitably crave something that I failed to bring with me so I end up just sitting around wishing I had brought that particular snack with me.Â Not to mention the fact that I equate lab with prison, which is just not conducive to my getting any work done since my morale and motivation are always at dreadfully low levels.Â So if you’ll excuse me now, I’m going to get as much work done as I can before my motivation dries up (i.e., my husband finishes his paper).
Don’t forget to check out an inspiring Grand Rounds today at Wandering Visitor.
Or sign wavers as I like to call them are everywhere. Especially on weekends. They litter practically every street corner waving their annoyingly colorful signs in your face as you drive by. Some, like this guy here, have arrows that are signs. Others have just plain old rectangular signs. Some are super creative and spin their signs and wave them around wildly, so much so that it kind of defeats the purpose since people can no longer really read them as they drive by or their arrow now doesn’t point at whatever business they’re trying to promote.
I don’t really care about these sign wavers except to think that what they’re doing is absolutely pointless and a health-risk to them. Not to mention humiliating. I wouldn’t want to be caught waving a sign around like a shmuck by anyone I know. The thing that irks me the most is the health risk part. These people are making around $10/hr for dancing around with a huge colorful sign, but that’s eight hours in the sun, with no sun protection (the savvier ones where light-colored clothes that cover as much of their body as possible, but damn, they must get hot, and most aren’t so savvy). I’ve checked out some of the solicitations for this job and there’s no mention of “wear sun protection” or anything even close to it in the descriptions. Shouldn’t these people be warned? How much is your skin and your life worth? Is it worth it to earn $80 in one day when you’re risking skin cancer? I know that there are many other jobs that involve a lot of sun exposure, such as farm workers, construction workers, etc. But these actually serve a purpose. We get food and buildings from these workers. Does having some guy dance around on a street corner waving a colorful sign really get people to buy new houses or cell phones? Both of these things are big purchases and not something that someone would just randomly buy just because they saw somebody dancing around with a colorful sign telling them to check these things out. I would think that the actual return is pretty damn low. So why should people be subjected to such indignity and risk? I think it’s just exploitation of people who are down on their luck and I wish it would stop.
…yes, now that I finally have glasses that I can actually wear. I suffered so long waiting for a year to pass so I could use my vision insurance to get new glasses. So long that I didn’t even realize that living in a blurry world is not normal. The first thing I noticed when I put my new glasses on was how much more vibrant colors were, which doesn’t make any sense. I guess colors looked dull to me with my unfocused eyes because things were blurry and now that they’re clear, everything looks more vibrant. I can’t believe I suffered so long like this. I would literally be falling asleep by the end of the day at lab because my eyes (and apparently, my brain) were so tired from straining to read things. Sitting in front of a computer all day probably didn’t help either. I was seriously at the end of my rope here…I couldn’t last another day feeling so damn tired regardless of how much sleep I got because so much of my energy was going into simply trying to see. Sad, but true. I just didn’t want to pay out-of-pocket for new glasses, dammit. And did I suffer for it. Next time, I think I’ll just pay.
It’s been awhile since I’ve actually chosen truly “inspiring” songs for this series. So today, my song choice is nobodyknows – Hero’s Come Back (and no, that’s not a typo), which is the current opening theme for Naruto Shippuuden, a Japanese anime series that I’m watching. It’s mostly in Japanese, but it’s pretty inspirational…a little something to get us all going as we head into first or second year, the USMLE Step 1, and the wards.
As usual, feel free to send me song suggestions here.
I cannot stress this point enough when it comes to med school. Contrary to popular belief, it’s not for everyone. Some people just aren’t cut out for it even if they think they are and their numbers are stellar. It’s not all rainbows and butterflies and neither is being a doctor. In fact, a first year at my school committed suicide earlier this year. And two first years at another med school also took their own lives. Sadly, I found myself thinking that the admissions process should have weeded these people out so that those spots wouldn’t have been wasted. Yes, it’s cold, but I can’t help thinking that way because these people should have known what they were getting into and whether they could handle it or not. If you’re not tough enough, then step aside and let the people who are tough enough have a shot at it. Because it doesn’t get any easier. Besides, you offed yourself in first year?! That’s not even when it’s the toughest. As my friend said when she heard the news, “What, why kill yourself during first year? Things are still good then. If anything, I would kill myself during third year.” Sad, but true. If you can’t even handle first year, then you shouldn’t even be in med school.
There’s also an MD volunteering in my lab because she’s interested in the specialty that this department is based in and my major professor is somehow connected. She was originally an internal medicine resident but dropped out of her program because she couldn’t take continually diagnosing people with conditions that she could not fix. Um, where were you during your internal medicine rotation? Didn’t you already know this before choosing the specialty? And how does this new specialty help? She’ll probably end up also dropping out of this new residency and become a teacher or something. What a waste.
So, please, if you want to be a doctor, make sure you know what you’re getting yourself into. And, no, don’t base your perceptions of medicine on Grey’s Anatomy or House.
Don’t forget to check out Grand Rounds today at Code Blog: Tales of a Nurse.